I told you and I'm certain about July being the month I get to experienced happiness. Ada yang kejap ada yang lasted for years. Today my friends asked me out for my belated Birthday dinner. Geng ni jenis yang jumpa bila ada acara besar seperti sambutan hari kelahiran (that's all kot) or bila masing-masing betul-betul free untuk bersua. Since masing-masing pun busy kan.
(Kenal dah masuk 10 tahun kan? Aktif gila dekat twitter dulu, masing-masing ada watak masing-masing)
So apa yang saya dapat daripada bulan Julai? First dan yang paling penting is my mom dapat pergi buat haji. I'm so happy for her and I did dedicated a post for her on this. The next one of course my birthday, I was born on July 10th 1991 pukul 10 malam macam tu dekat HKL. Next one, I finally got my confirmation letter walaupun dah confirm dua bulan yang lepas but still Tuhan saja nak bagi saya extra happy bulan ni, so dilambatkan tarikh penerimaan surat tu ke bulan ni. So on my birthday juga I thought I found someone lah kan and sempat lah merasa diri tu macam orang peduli. Tapi tak kan lah semua benda nak happy je kan bulan ni.
Kesedihan yang melanda bulan ni adalah kesibukan kerja. Not that I'm sad sebab kena buat kerja but my poor time management yang buat I can't spent enough time dengan orang yang sepatutnya. Sedih yang lagi satu, that person yang I thought was it telah mengundur diri. But it was nothing new to me, macam Sam Smith kata, I'm way too good at goodbyes. Sedih tu macam the first 30 seconds je, lepas tu otak reset balik. I'm actually impress on how fast I can move on with my life right now.
But kalau nak dikirakan balik, happiness tu banyak lagi lah compared to those two things yang konon nya sedih tu. I also noticed that this year, air mata tak banyak keluar. Maybe sebab memang dah immune to rasa sedih kot. So paling-paling bila rasa sedih is to feel sebak. Nangis dalam hati kata orang or there's no more tears left to cry? okay lah merepek.
P/S: Doa mak macam dah sampai je ni. Saya rasa happy!