Stay Focus Please!
- Faiz Faisal
- 1 day ago
- 2 min read
Trying to Stay Focused When Everything Feels Like It’s Falling Apart
I think I need to talk about this—because lately, I’ve been struggling to stay focused on getting my life together.
I don’t know what changed. Maybe it was after COVID. Or maybe more specifically, after I got laid off from TikTok. Ever since then, my motivation has been… unstable.
One day, I’m inspired. I’m excited. I’m planning, dreaming, thinking about everything I want to achieve.
And the next day? I’m just… over it.
I don’t want to work. I don’t want to try. I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore.
It’s been like a roller coaster I didn’t sign up for.
Losing Momentum
After TikTok, I never really found my pace again.
I worked at Anytime Fitness for 13 months. Then came the scam job that left me jobless for three months. Then I joined another company, stayed for three months, left, and was jobless again. Now I’m in a new role, four months in—and I can feel the same pattern creeping back.
I started this job excited. Hopeful, even.
But as time goes on, it’s not turning out to be what I expected. And I don’t know if it ever will.
Trying to Convince Myself to Keep Going
I keep trying to motivate myself.
I tell myself, “Jobs are hard to find nowadays.”
I tell myself, “This could be the opportunity that helps you start your clothing brand.”
I tell myself, “Just push through.”
But is that enough?
The pay is lower than what I used to earn. And I understand why—I’m starting over. But I think that’s also what’s weighing me down. That feeling of going backwards when all I wanted was to move forward.
When Reality Hits Harder Than Dreams
Planning for the future feels good.
In my head, everything looks amazing. I can see the brand, the growth, the life I want. But then reality kicks in—today still needs to be lived.
And today feels heavy.
I haven’t recovered from my losses yet.
Right now, I’m earning just to cover what I lost.
There’s nothing left to save.
And without savings… how do I even feel secure?
When Positivity Feels Impossible
People always say, “Stay positive.”
But how do you stay positive when you feel like you’re drowning?
I really tried. I really did.
I tried to be hopeful. I tried to stay motivated. I tried to tell myself it’s just a phase. But some days, it just feels like too much.
And the hardest part?
Trying to stay focused on your goals when everything around you feels like it’s falling apart.
I Don’t Have the Answer (Yet)
I wish I could end this with a lesson. Or a breakthrough. Or something inspiring.
But the truth is—I don’t know what to do right now.
I’m still figuring it out.
Maybe the only thing I can do for now is to keep showing up, even if I’m not at my best. Even if I don’t feel motivated. Even if I don’t have clarity.
Because maybe staying focused doesn’t mean having everything together.
Maybe it just means… not giving up completely.
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